on acid

death to catcallers circa turn of the century?

humans are ghosts grown from meat. eventually the meat breaks and the ghost disappears again.


i can't get over how accurate this cartoon depictions of an acid trip is.the emotional character of it, anyway. the last acid trip i took i remember laying back in my sleeping bag and mistaking the light of the moon through the tree tops for a fractal which extends through all reality connecting my consciousness with the infinite godhead. i thought i was dead, and the sounds of the bugs chirping in the trees was reality rubbing against itself.

i got pretty freaked out. i didn't like being dead-but-still conscious. i was afraid that 'this was it and that i'd be stuck here until my 'mind' broke and splintered itself into infinite smaller pieces, returning me to a conscious 'being'--because the perspective we view from our peepholes is a lie, and all things are ultimately part of the same whole--the universe.

eventually my friend (called trashcan) came and smoked some weed with me. eventually i was able to chill out. it's hard to sleep when you're tripping, but eventually i did.

that was the hardest i had ever tripped, but not the best trip i had ever had. never before had i experienced such helplessness on lsd. i've experienced it on weed, and i've experienced it on dmt.

cartoon interpretations of drug use is an interesting concept, and they rarely get it right. for hallucinogens, in my experience, the drug happens to you, it's not something you're involved with. there's no pink elephant leading you on a magical journey, it's more like everything takes on an extreme quality and you invent ideas to cope with it. doing strong drugs feels like being alone in the universe.

 it's strange. in the world i inhabit its very common for the average person to be familiar with most drugs. heroin, meth, acid, mushrooms, coke make daily cameos in some form or another. yet media depictions of drugs are typically wrong, indicating the average american is unfamiliar with them.

even within the same culture lifestyles can be so completely different. to think that there are adults out there with misconceptions about lsd, or even pot(!!) boggles my mind.

i guess there's always more things to learn. if you've never encountered it before there's no reason you should know about it. the internet hasn't been around long enough to assume the average person uses it to its full extent (learning). its only been around for a few decades and it's already starting to turn the way of tv. useless bullshit. but not really! just below the surface layer of corruptive garbage (social media) there lies the sum of human knowledge. how good we have it and don't even know!

social media feels like a black tentacle of evil ooze that latches onto people around me. suddenly the conversation disappears and everyone is grasped by the Eye. i can't complain too much, though. on the way home i realized i'm probably the most introverted person on the planet.

edit: i'm not sure if using the internet for learning is the fullest extent of its use, there are probably other practical uses, but it's the biggest one i most directly relate to.